Suicide Miracles

What does it mean exactly "do or die"?

When you stop believing you can win, you've already lost.

Later.

Vomit

I had to get this out, before it reaches into me and settles.
(BTW, I had this thought before the whole awfulness below,previous post.It just so happened that the fire occured while I was typing this out.I mean no insult to injury. Well maybe just a little, NYEAH! I did mention to the lot of you that i am dead inside, right?)

*Ranting incoherently;*

When will some people figure out just because they finished college that it doesn't mean they're educated, more importantly, smart and intelligent? When will people ever figure out that education is not the same as intelligence? When will they learn that not everyone can go to school, for whatsoever(learning disabilities,financial disabilities,spite*cough*,etc.) reasons some individuals may have? When will people stop acting so superior just becase they have some fucking piece of probably fake parchment paper(Oh how I loathe "papers" of all kinds). When will they figure out the differences between, wise, smart, intelligent, well mannered, and educated? Will they ever figure out that some people stay in college not because they're smart enough, but because they can pay enough? No, really, even the dumbest fuck will not get rejected/dropped just as long as they pay their tuition on time. Fuck you! Till' you figure out the difference the between intelligent,wise, smart,well manered, and educated, fuck you! Numbers, papers, don't measure a persons worth and potential, fuck you! You fucks!

Anyway, there, got it out before it festers in my gullet.

PS.Vague relation to rant above;
Now go watch "Into the Wild"(the way he dies in the end is just fucking stupid).

Not my fault!(Again)

If the video ain't working here it is.



Damn, I can smell it from where i'm at. And, the ash reached up to my place. The first real reason to "why I got a phone"(not much of a phone though, anyway,i hear Samsung has a 14 megapixel camphone coming, drifted for a moment there). Did I mention I gots a phone now(I'm all dead inside.)

Later.

Vision Quest

The vision quest is described as(to my understanding,from reading folklore, go Wiki it for a vaguer description ) a journey to find one's place in the world. A rite of passage(Passage into what?).A turning point in a person's life, where everything that person has to do is revealed and defined. The said person would go on a journey into the wilderness, there he would live in the wild and be isolated from any form of contact. He would then meditate, for as long as it would take for visions to come. Often enduring the harsh environment, hunger, sickness or even death.

Here I am. I just turned 26(Is it too late to take on a quest? Or, am I on one now?). The world has not revealed anything. My environment has been anything but hospitable. I need to define myself.It has to be said that I feel the strange feeling I get after New Year's(Coincidentaly my birthday fell on the first day of the new lunar year). I still have no clear definition of who I've become.

Another year ahead. I will endure.